Love fires the first shot in the Love War against negative voices

by Craig on June 21, 2011

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For me it started with one word…

I heard it after a night where I must have woken more than 20 times in a six-hour period.

It was one of those nights.

Each time I desperately wanted to fall back to sleep, but my body resisted – hard. The waking was out of my control. It wasn’t my fault. My brain does this and in almost 15 years I haven’t found anyone who can tell me why – or fix the brain.

The final time I awoke, it was about 3AM and it was time to get up and start writing this post and the other one for Deep into Scripture.

But this was the one time that my body allowed me to quickly fall back to sleep.

Nice.

All night long I wanted to sleep, but my body wouldn’t let me. Now I wanted to get up and my body decided it was time to fall asleep. And in the not quite conscious blur and haze of sleeplessness there weren’t enough resources available to tell the body, “No”.

And after waking up from said sleep, more than an hour later, came the negative voice. But this time it didn’t stay in my head – it came out as I said one word…

Back to that in a minute…

Today, something practical and hands-on – the first shot in the Love War against the stupid negative voices.

Today I’m carrying a posty notepad with me all day. I’ll be keeping it within arm’s reach because every single time I hear a negative inner thought I’m grabbing a pen and jotting it down.

right here…

I heart posty notes.

And if I were a crafty person I’d come up with how to make a beautiful “stupid negative voice” board , or make a 3-D model of the battleground of the Love War against the Negative voices…

or something with hooks…
or lights…
or banners and ribbons and color…
and maybe some glue and sparkles.

But I’m not that person.

Sorry.

If anyone comes up with a pretty little craft please let me know.

But for me it’s posty notes,
and a pen,
and this wall.

It’s a wall I see a lot of. And a small army of little posty notes will soon be calling it home.

and yes – that’s Laska the Love kitty and his incessant desire to be photographed… yet still look like it doesn’t matter.

I don’t want to lose these posties so I might add a little tape – but I’ll wait for the first one to fall off before I add the additional tape, because I’d like to lose the negative voices – but still keep the paint on the wall.

Here’s my first one…

It’s the word that came out of my mouth after last night’s losing battle with sleep. It’s negative, and it didn’t stay “inner”.

But today it gets written down…

Like so…

And this goes on the wall…

Like so…

 

Identifying the stupid negative voices is the first shot in the Love War against them…

next time the war continues…

please come back…

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Cora June 21, 2011 at 9:56 am

I love sticky notes. And the wall will work well (if Laska allows them to stay there!). Isn’t it amazing to find out that YES, there are still these crazy, lying, loud, negative voices going on in our heads???? That’s bad enough, but when we realize how much power they have to control our lives minute by minute, we see the seriousness of it all.

I will confess here and now what goes through my head. It was yelled at me a million times as a child: “You dirty, rotten, lousy, stinkin’, good-for-nothing bum!” Talk about a string of stinging words! My family tried to make light of this and in my adult years tried to get me to embroider the phrase so we could all hang it on the walls of our homes. Like — I would really WANT that on my walls??????? This past week, Ann wrote a post on In-Courage about someone who had made a quilt with verses and sayings that were positive responses to all the negative things she heard. I thought that was a perfect way to wrap up in what God wants to tell us!

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Craig June 21, 2011 at 12:25 pm

Laska, by the way, has already begun eyeing the two notes that I have up there.

And it’s one of the sad things about people who cut down other people – usually in order to make themselves feel bigger – it’s disguised in humor. I think the first step in eliminating the negative voices is to identify exactly what they are – that’s what this wall is going to be about – but there’s more to it – this first part of the wall is only the left side. God bless you Cora.

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A. June 27, 2011 at 1:53 pm

Cora, it IS so awful and amazing to learn only recently how much those voices have had a play in my life!!!!

Can’t imagine such a negative quilt on the wall-love that you shared Ann’s alternative!

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Debbie June 22, 2011 at 1:21 am

Thinking about this Craig . . .and not wanting to be a victim any more. There is a lot of negativity running around in my head. It needs to go. I think your system is going to work without the sparkle and craft extras! I’m not sure negative voice deserves all of that! :)
God bless you and thank you for helping us with this!

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Craig June 22, 2011 at 9:07 pm

Debbie – today I wrote about how yesterday the negative thoughts had me by the throat. Me being all gung ho in my war against the negative voices. And they had me pinned to the ground yesterday. It may just be kind of like stirring up a hornet’s nest – once they get threatened – they attack. I think a lot of prayer is an order – all of us – for all of us. God bless you Debbie.

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A. June 27, 2011 at 1:52 pm

Debbie, so funny about the voices not deserving the sparkle and craft! And so true! Craig is so timely with this voices war help. I don’t want to be a victim any more, either, and am only just realizing how much a part of my dark parts of life have been so affected by voices-those of others and those I create.

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Debbie June 27, 2011 at 6:28 pm

Oh A . . .I know what you mean!!! I am just realizing that too . . .and then here’s Craig! :) I can’t change the people that some of the negativity comes through . . .but I am seeing that I can change how I respond. And that I can just say no to it too. God bless you A and suit you up for battle! You can do this with Him!

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