Love rounds the final turn and takes the lead

by Craig on August 9, 2011

around the final turn of the love war on the negative voicessource

And now for the home stretch in the Love War on the negative voices.

All the horses are corralled, a top ten, particularly troublesome mustangs, have been separated – and the top one placed in the training area…

and now its interrogation.

If you are new to the Love War on the negative voices that hold us back, it began here, and all the horse stuff, and posty note stuff is explained here. And it has a whole category of its own over on the side bar – in the “lots of love” section.

Now for the most important thing before battling the voices…

And I always forget to do this…

I forget the most indispensable weapon in the arsenal…

I don’t pray.

It’s such a simple thing really, and powerful. Why do I leave it out so much?

So before I attempt to break each wild horse, I stop, and bring God into the equation.

Now I can begin breaking the horse – taming it, to saddle it, and ride it.

The first, and worst, negative voice of mine is this one:

asking the right questions defeats the negative voices

and it now gets grilled with questions…

Where did you come from? When was I “good enough”?

I was 5. The age of 5 – that was the last time I felt “good enough”. I had a loving mom, a great extended family, friends, security, a protective older brother I idolized. School was all friends and good grades – and home was love.

Then she married him and home became my personal war zone. And I never behaved well enough, and I deserved the beatings, and if I didn’t get to sleep on time I deserved the standing in the corner for hours after bedtime. I began crying out for attention everywhere because the only attention HE paid to me was painful.

And that was almost too easy.

When do I hear you most?

Every time I try something new. Every time I take a risk. Every time I sit down to write a post. Every time I do something that needs someone else’s approval – or I think it does.

How do I feel when I hear you?

Afraid, unworthy – every bit a loser.

What do I do when I hear you?

I put off action – I procrastinate. I give up. I expect failure.

What is the opposite of this response?

To act anyway, to not give up, expect success.

Is there a positive nugget to be gleaned from this voice?

Sure. None of us are “good enough”. The gospel of grace was made for people like me – for all the people like me – and that’s everybody.

If I were to pick one, and only one true fact that disproves this voice, what would that fact be?

Almost every time I have felt I wasn’t good enough – in fact I was.

Love defeats the negative voices that hold us backsource

Knowing all of this – replace the old voice with a new and better one – a short one:

I am good enough to try.

So now I have to redo my posty note,
and make the writing smaller…

because there’s lots of new information.

I guess I’ll show you the finished product next time…

and also next time…

it’s on to the next horse.

Please come back.

{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

Andrea Dawn August 9, 2011 at 12:10 pm

Well, my friend, that bronc looks busted to me. I see you riding high in the saddle and holding the reins. I love that you are not trying to destroy the wild horses but to transform them and put them into service for God’s glory and purposes (kind of like He does with us).

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Craig August 9, 2011 at 1:16 pm

well, Andrea Dawn, we’ll see how well the bronc stays busted. I’m thinking when the love war is done – a few posts on how to keep the mustang trained might be in order. Because we don’t want them acting up at just the wrong time. And I couldn’t destroy the wild horses – if love is the center of my life, then breaking them, training them, that’s the thing to do. I think that the lifespan of broken horses is probably longer than the lifespan of wild horses – it’s that way with house cats versus outside cats. We’ll see – thank you for reading – thank you for being so supportive and nice – and God bless and keep you and each and every one of yours.

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Dawn August 9, 2011 at 9:21 pm

My son wore a shirt for my granddaughter’s baptism that said:

Good people don’t go to heaven, FORGIVEN sinners do!

and from a much more authoritative source:

There is none righteous, no not one. ~Paul in Romans quoting Psalm 14!

We’re all in the same boat, but those of us with the Jesus life preservers will make it,
Dawn

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Craig August 10, 2011 at 4:06 pm

“Jesus life preservers” – I heart that! The son you speak of isn’t the same one that beats you at chess is he? :-) God bless you Dawn!

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Debbie August 9, 2011 at 9:48 pm

I simply loved that, Craig . . .I am good enough to try. Yes. I really, really like that! :) big giddy smiles are erupting now. God bless you and this series He led you to do!

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Craig August 10, 2011 at 4:09 pm

Amen Debbie, “good enough to try”. It might mean failure, it might mean success, it might mean a total mess or a total blessing – ours is to try – MINE is to try – and pray for God’s will – and want God’s will – and let Him sort things out. He only directs the boat if I put the boat in the water. Oh me of little faith. Thank you Debbie – and God bless you as always.

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Michelle August 10, 2011 at 7:23 am

“I am good enough to try.”

Yes you are. Yes I am. And yes we are. Gotta remember to pray. That’s a note to me, but you can take hold of it to if you want.

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Craig August 10, 2011 at 4:12 pm

and we have to remember to pray. I know you won’t read today’s post until tomorrow – or whatever that is in Australia – but today, in the United States, I wrote about the number two voice – it is safer to hide – and I didn’t pray before – I just tackled it. And guess what? All I wanted to do all day – from the posting of the post – was to hide. So yes – obviously we do need to remember to pray! God bless you Michelle!

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A. August 10, 2011 at 7:43 am

Loved what you shared here, Craig…and the way you intentionally broke down the process into specific questions that really help clarify the voice-its origin, message, the truth, etc.,-is so important to helping break or train the wild horses. Loved the new message, too: Good enough to try, and the reminder to pray…yes-to stay in touch with the Master of all trainers!

Examples are worth a thousand words-and in this case, depend on words-but loved the way you shared the questioning process with us!

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Craig August 10, 2011 at 4:14 pm

all my meandering for all this time in the love war on the negative voices – it should all come together here and now. And yes – so important to remember to pray before tackling the stallions. I don’t think I’ll be taking everybody through the questioning process of all – what – 50 or so negative voices. But I’m pretty sure I’ll do the top five – maybe the top 10. I count on you to be reading – and let me know when enough is enough! Hint. Hint. Hint. God bless you A.

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Mari August 11, 2011 at 8:51 pm

Hi, my name is Mari and Im not good enough but praise God that He is and through his Son I am made righteous!
Oh we should form a club: “The Not Good Enoughs” b/c there are only 2 types of ppl, those who know they aren’t good enough and those who dont know it yet 😉 That we have to be good enough is a lie of this world that Jesus sets us free from.

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Craig August 13, 2011 at 11:07 am

Hi, my name is Craig and I’m not good enough but praise God that He is and through his Son I am made righteous!

If I could add anything to your words I would – but they say it all. Right. On. Point. Amen!!

God bless you Mari, sorry I’m late responding.

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