Love doesn’t hide in shadows

by Craig on August 11, 2011

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And so yesterday I wrote confidently on breaking wild horse number two.

Ahead will be talk of wild horses, and corrals, and posty notes…
it’ll make little sense without background…
If you are new to the Love War against the negative voices…
it began here
and the ponies and posties are explained here….
And over to the right and down a bit on the sidebar, in the “Lots of Love” section…
is the whole history of the war.

Yesterday the Love war was about this voice:

I attacked it with logic and personal history and determination.

I wrote a few posts ago that I always seem to forget one important step in stuff like this.

Prayer.

This changing of our minds, it’s not all about the process…
it would be if we weren’t Christians,
but because we are
we have access to power…
and we so seldom grab it…
and by ‘we” I mean “I”.

Yesterday from the moment I posted about breaking the wild horse of “it’s safer to hide”,
I felt an overwhelming desire…

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to do. just. that.

The last words in the post were…

after spilling all of this…
guess what I feel like…
I feel like hiding.

And the feeling spread like a pitcher of Kool-Aid toppled on a white couch.

And I remembered three things that I have learned in this love war on the negative voices.

1.    The thing which the negative voice makes us want to do only reveals the thing that needs done. If it makes us feel insecure we need to remember why we should be more secure. If it makes us feel afraid, even while feeling the fear, we should be bold. If it makes us feel like hiding, we need to connect. I so didn’t feel like connecting – so I did – and the day turned.
2.    Pray. Such a simple thing. It could be one word, “help” or it could be more. To do any of this without prayer is like making pancakes and leaving the eggs to the side. There might be “pan” but not so much “cake’. So yesterday I prayed – a little late – but I prayed – and I got cake.
3.    The inner critics, the negative voices, have been a part of us a long time. I read of one woman who even described them as keeping her company. When she began ridding herself of the negative voices she felt lonely and scared to be without them. But I ask myself, is it better to be in a cage, not alone, but with a hungry lion – or free of the cage, leaving the lion inside – alone with a steak.

The Love War on the negative voices continues with these things in mind…

Tomorrow my number three negative voice…

it gets led into the training corral…

and after I pray…

comes the breaking.

Please come back.

{ 10 comments… read them below or add one }

Dawn August 11, 2011 at 9:22 am

Dear Craig,

I just copied the three points you learned about the negative voices and pasted them to my sister’s Facebook page. Yesterday she posted that success is on the other side of fear. I think this is a good response to that. I’m having lunch with her today after her appointment with a psychologist. These points will really help: such a timely post for the events that are making up my life right now. It’s got to be God.

Thanks for your obedience,
Dawn

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Craig August 11, 2011 at 10:00 am

see! You should’ve watched the A-team – then you would understand the line “I love it when a plan comes together” :-) it is amazing how God does stuff – there’s so much – there are so many variables and consequences – I wonder if sometimes whole worlds have to be moved to make a leaf turn in the wind. Only a perfect God could do that. God bless you Dawn – and thank you as always.

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Dawn August 11, 2011 at 10:21 am

I’m going to hear about my A-Team ignorance till I get the reruns through Netflix. Oh, to bite the bullet! Did that show run in color? I can only hope! Anyway, I love the pondering, “Do whole worlds have to be moved to make a leaf turn in the wind?” Hmmm. I know the muttlies think their whole world revolves around me. It’s kinda nice.

God bless you today and always,
Dawn

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Craig August 11, 2011 at 10:33 am

it’s in color – it was the 80s for goodness sakes. And the muttlies’ world does revolve around you. The world of love kitties revolves around them – but leaves room for orbiting humans :-). God Bless.

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A. August 11, 2011 at 11:03 am

Craig, thank you for this post and the list of 3. The insight the lady shared about the voices reminds me of how people who are in dysfunctional or abusive situations so often stay in them because it is what is familiar. The tug of the familiar can be so strong. In a sense, to train these horses is to reparent or retrain ourselves with the truth and transformative power of the Holy Spirit, isn’t it?

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Craig August 11, 2011 at 1:06 pm

A., And you are so right – the relationship with the voices IS an abusive and dysfunctional relationship – so I guess it’s natural that it should reflect any other abusive and dysfunctional relationship. And yes – training these horses is to retrain ourselves – and not forget the power of God. We can’t forget to pray – I always forget to pray before handling the horses! Grrrrrrrr. God bless you A.

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Kristin August 11, 2011 at 5:03 pm

To be free of the cage. . .or walking out of our prison door as I mentioned today.

OK, I’m going to put myself out there…I watched tv in the 80’s and I don’t remember the A-Team. Do I have to watch the re-runs to be able to stay a follower of yours? :)

Enjoyed being here as usual. . .always learning something from you.
Blessings~

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Craig August 11, 2011 at 8:36 pm

interesting how both of us chose to write about invisible cages today. Just about as effective as the steel kind. I heart that we were thinking the same way. And I googled it – 1983 to 1987 the team was a hit – it’s where Mr. T got his start. My sister watched it – so I know it wasn’t only a guy thing. Oh well. And apparently, Kristen, I can’t make having seen the A team a requirement for reading me – seems if I did – I might not have anyone here. But I know they existed – and thank you Google for proving that. Blessings to you too Kristin. ツ

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Cora August 12, 2011 at 9:36 am

Craig, I never thought of hiding as one of the voices and it wasn’t in my corral or on my list. I was thinking that hiding was more of the result of ALL my negative voices. I thought about this all day long, as I’ve been in hiding this past week. It’s been like a lightbulb was just turned on for me. If this is a voice (and it is!), I’ve been wrong because this one is the leader, the strongest of the whole pack, the one that gets the others to do their “dirty work” and then the “go hide” strongest one disables me and sends me into the closet. Sorry I haven’t been here, but I’ve been really getting into this, rearranging my list and seeing my horses for who they really are and where their strengths lie. Thank you for this, Craig! It came at just the right time for me.

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Craig August 13, 2011 at 10:28 am

Cora, You’re finding what i am – these “voices’ are inter-related! That might be a new 0 upcoming question to ask of them. Who are you related to? God Bless you Cora – you are missed when you’re gone ツ

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