Love says thank you 1,000 times (#722-730)

by Craig on January 2, 2012

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I’ve been there…the desert.
Wind flies free of any barrier.
Heat sits like a Sumo…
atop its defeated opponent…
the cracked…parched…ground…
no life…

…unless I see with better eyes.

I’ve been there…the peak…
in blinding blankets of white…
the highest point in this land…
cold stabs with a thousand blades of frost…

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Nothing growing…nothing flying…
no life…

…unless I see with better eyes.

There is life…
suited to the severity of the place…
placed there by intention…
placed by a Creator who cares…
even about a sparrow falling from its place…
from the sky.

But I can see… only if I see…with better eyes.

The ending of the year I named “Connect” screeched to a halt…
but, now, having touched a year’s worth of connecting…
there is no going back to the choice of being “lone”…
there may be “lonely”, but I think no room in the inn…for “lone”.

I’ve been writing of how love moves beyond…
past words that cut through sinew to heart…
and actions that bent knees and forced them to ground…
the flow from anger, to doubt, to sadness…
to the only response I should ever have had…
patience, kindness, humility…

but instead my pride caste a long and wide shadow…

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and my practice of love cowered timidly in its path.

Love has since whispered answers…

But first…the new year needs a name…
and before that comes today…Monday…
and Mondays are for thank you’s as I link with Ann…

 

Thank You God…

#722… that peace can be found in the pat on the shoulder, the hug, the purr of a cat.

#723… that I can hear Your heartbeat with ears that want to hear, as my heart calms its own selfish rhythm.

#724… for eyes that look less to a future not here yet…
and less over the shoulder to a past that no longer exists…
but more to this moment, only lived once, and the eternity that resides in the now.

#725… that any trial, any heartache, misfortune, injury, insult…
though not always prevented by Your hands that know no bounds…
is easier to pass through because Your presence knows no bounds.

#726… that I can lean on You…as You pick me up out of the waves…when I don’t believe enough.

#727… that You are worthy of trust, and have proven time and time again to be worthy of faith.

#728… that this lifetime is just today, followed by today, followed by today, until all the todays run out, and all that remains is eternity.

#729… that all that is broken will be forever fixed.

#730…that in severity is great beauty…if I see with better eyes.

{ 21 comments… read them below or add one }

Mari January 2, 2012 at 11:17 am

“that this lifetime is just today”…that makes things more manageable. In Alcoholic Anonymous groups they teach members to focus on being sober “just for today” because when we think of a lifetime of doing anything, it can seem overwhelming! I’m exited to read what you name 2012 =)

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Mari January 2, 2012 at 11:18 am

Oh and wishing you a 2012 filled with blessings from God!

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Craig January 2, 2012 at 12:55 pm

thank you Mari, it’s true – right now is just today – and like our Lord said – today has enough worries of its own – so why bother worrying about tomorrow. So much easier said – than done. And I didn’t know that about AA – but it makes sense. I guess it’s like when you have a big project in front of you – you chop it up into little pieces – and you just accomplish each little piece – one at a time – until you get to the end – it makes sense. Thank you for that. And I’m pretty much set on my word for 2012 – but clearly I still have commitment issues ツ Mari – I hope you have the best of new years – really I do. God bless you.

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Carrie January 2, 2012 at 11:24 am

Love #725. Many times – more than I ‘d like to count, He has been the only presence, the only closeness to me in moments of shocking pain and heartache. But no matter the pain, if I cried out to Him, He’d always respond. My trustworthy, all encompassing Father. Thank you for this list, Craig.

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Craig January 2, 2012 at 1:01 pm

Amen Carrie, obviously people make it through all of life without ever feeling his presence – and they LOOK as though they do fine. Everybody really is broken – there is not one of us unaffected by the fall. The more people I meet – and understand through the years, the more I know this to be true. And truth be told, I didn’t always know that He would be there – I prayed often just because I believed – not because I expected him to meet me there – but I still I prayed – always I believed. I’m happy tok now – that YOU know his presence. God bless you Carrie.

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Eva Trillian January 2, 2012 at 11:47 am

Wishing you a blessed 2012 with eyes that see through grace!

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Craig January 2, 2012 at 1:04 pm

thank you Eva – regardless of what happens in 2012 – I believe I’m blessed – I believe we are all blessed regardless of circumstances if we know our Lord. But I think seeing things with better eyes will help me to see blessings better – as well as trials. And as Ann would say – all’s grace. thank you again Eva, and God bless and keep you.

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Kelly January 2, 2012 at 12:00 pm

this moment, only lived once. love that. happy new year, to whole year of fully lived moments!

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Craig January 2, 2012 at 1:08 pm

Kelly, after I areareread your comment I had a flash of thought – a sudden inspiration to become a youth pastor – I have the degree – it could happen – except the sleep thing would just prevent me from doing a good job – being there consistently enough. Unless of course I could find a church that would allow me a nap every hour to recharge – and live with those two or three days out of 10 that my body just shuts down. Not complaining – it’s my thorn. Anyway I thought of being a youth pastor – because with the certain amount of wisdom that comes with living through some years – you understand how precious time is – more than you do when you’re a teenager – I wish someone would’ve told me as a teenager some of the things I would tell a teenager now. Anyway – I’m sure you meet a lot of people who understand that now is what needs paying attention to. God bless you, and your husband, and all that you do in Uganda Kelly.

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Katie January 2, 2012 at 1:10 pm

#724 = One day one moment at a time it how I often get through. Focusing on now.

#725 – I was reminded of Larry Crabb and what he said, “Pain is our friend.” I still have a hard time grasping that pain is our friend………. necessary and draws us close to Jesus, but not my friend not yet anyway in my mind. Romans 5:3-5 “3 Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”

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Craig January 2, 2012 at 1:18 pm

one day at a time – that sometimes helps get us through – but sometimes you just want to skip a whole bunch of moments. No? And Larry Crabb – all due respect – pain is not my friend – God, who works us through our pain – if we yield to him – he’s our friend. Pain is at best a nasty little chisel to our granite. not really a big fan of pain – nor do I really want to dress it up – pain is horrid. Anyway, I’m thankful that pain won’t always be there – one day…one day…

God bless you Katie.

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Dawn January 2, 2012 at 2:21 pm

I love #728 that this lifetime is just today, followed by today, followed by today, until all the todays run out, and all that remains is eternity.

This is such a good way to say all of life is progressive present, at least, this is what I see you are saying, but what if I see…with better eyes?

Dawn

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Craig January 2, 2012 at 2:55 pm

okay – okay – I readily confess that what some people can say with two words – I’ll drag out to at least sentence – if not a full post. Yes – I guess “progressive present” sums it up pretty well ツ well played my friend ツ God bless you!

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Nacole January 2, 2012 at 6:22 pm

#728…has me thinking…ive been thinking about this quite a bit lately, being the thinker that i am…and i have come to the conclusion that i am so very, very glad that God exists, that He loves me, that He died for me and has gone to Heaven to prepare a place for me where i will forever be with Him in eternity. i am so grateful for all the comforts He has given me while i am in this place separated from Him–his Holy Spirit, my husband and children and family and church family. i am so, so grateful for all He’s done and all He’s given and that life is not meaningless, that im not here just to exist and then die. we have a hope and its glory.

blessings and a happy new year to you, friend!

Nacole

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Craig January 3, 2012 at 12:21 pm

I’m not sure which part of this comment by heart the most – I heart it lots. I think I’ll go with, “life is not meaningless…I’m not here just to exist and then die.” my friend – you’re a writer. Blessings to you – and happy new year Nacole.

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Lori January 3, 2012 at 9:39 am

#728… that this lifetime is just today, followed by today, followed by today, until all the todays run out, and all that remains is eternity.

I love this. My hubby and I focus on ‘all things for a time’. But this is a much more positive way of looking at things. Thank you.

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Craig January 3, 2012 at 12:25 pm

everybody likes #728 – the others all have jealousy “issues”. ツI think we’re the only things in the universe, besides Angels, and fallen Angels, and God, that can choose to NOT be in the present. We say that cats and dogs are so good at being in the present – but I’m not sure that they have a choice. We can plan, we can regret, we can look forward, we can look back – but we also know that now is the only thing that exists. Time, eternity, being present in the moment – it all ties together. Thank you Lori, thank you, and God bless and keep you and yours.

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Stacy January 3, 2012 at 10:48 am

Reading this post today was truly a blessing. I have much heart-work to do this year and you reminded me of our hope…”that all that is broken will be forever fixed.”

And you even managed to make me think a rat was cute. 😉

A happy and blessed new year to you.

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Craig January 3, 2012 at 10:54 am

I was thinking it was a mouse. IT WAS A RAT!!!!????? Rats aren’t cute – go with mouse – mice are cute – go with mouse ツ yay mouse ツ

and amen – it IS good to know that all the broken – which means everything – will be forever fixed. I needed the reminder too. Thank you Stacy, and God bless.

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Tiffany January 7, 2012 at 1:04 pm

Thank you for this post. It was so beautiful. “But I can see… only if I see…with better eyes.” I love this line. I got my “beterr eyes” a year ago when my heart was shattered in Ethiopia, but keeping them better is the challenge for me. Lovely blog.

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Craig January 15, 2012 at 5:47 am

Tiffany, my goodness – I’m so sorry for replying to your comment so, so, so late. I don’t know how I missed it – but somehow I did. Really, I’m sorry. And Ethiopia – I can’t wait to read about that on your blog – I bet it made things so simple – so clear – I’m glad that it gave you better eyes. I think I’ll be reading you today. Thank you Tiffany – and again – sorry – and God bless and keep you and all of yours!

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