Love knows that fasting can bring us closer…to Love

by Craig on February 23, 2012

How can fasting bring me closer to God? source

A little miracle I think…
yielding strength through weakness…
drawing me closer to Our Lord.

This is part two of a series of some sweet revelation, borne from a simple Lenten fast.
Part one is here – a little fasting doctrine and why I’m fasting to begin with.

And I found the big thing about fasting…
not so much the subtraction of food…
but the addition of contemplation…
meditation of…and about…our Creator.

And as the fast continued I sat silent for a bit…
thought about these words of Our Lord…

…and behold, I am with you always… (MT 28:22)

I think of the possibility…
of Jesus being here with me…right now.
I really need him here…right now.

There are so many challenges swirling…
a limited amount of time to make a dream happen…
and I’ve been discouraged…
and I have faltered…
and my faith has been wavering…
and I’ve felt a distance from Him that I don’t much heart.

And He is here, with me…right now…

How can a fast bring me closer to God? source

because He said he would never leave me…us.

And there are suddenly tears…
but no big “feeling” of His presence…

…yet.

And that’s ok, because I know that faith doesn’t depend on feelings.

I ask for the Holy Spirit of God to bring me peace.
Symbolically I breathe it in and exhale stress…
and I trust that it’ll work.

I think of God who is Holy and Spirit…
and the three who are God…
but yet…only. One. God.

I chose long ago to worship this God…in Trinity.

I heart that mystery of Trinity!

I ask Our Lord…
while breathing in peace…
and exhaling worry…
for him to take some of that worry…
as much as He sees fit.

And I can feel it leave through the fingers.

I do what I know he tells us we can do. It’s in the middle of one of those “Imprecatory” Psalms I’ve been studying…bordered on each side with imprecation…an invoking of evil upon enemies.

Imprecation which I direct toward the Evil One and his horrid minions…
and meditation on the part in the middle that we all know…and heart.

How can fasting bring me closer to God? source

Softer than butter is his [the Evil One’s] speech,
but war is in his heart.
Smoother than oil are his words,
but they are unsheathed swords.

Cast your care upon the LORD,
who will give you support.
He will never allow
the righteous to stumble.

But you, God, will bring them [the horrid minions of the Evil One] down
to the pit of destruction.
These bloodthirsty liars
will not live half their days,
but I put my trust in you. (PS 55: 21-23)

and this begins to open doors…
and that feeling that wasn’t there?

¯\(◕‿◕)/¯

There is more…

much much more…

and much much more holy.

It was just a two day fast, but I’ll be writing about it for a while.

Please. Come. Back.

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Dawn February 23, 2012 at 5:03 pm

Dear Craig,

What you’re describing here sounds so familiar to me because of the book, Dark Night of the Soul, that I am reading at the suggestion of A and Cora. Please read Chapter X. I am grateful to Mike Azer for giving us the address to access it online:
http://www.ccel.org/ccel/john_cross/dark_night.toc.html

I lifted great sections of the translation of the book and tried to write about it if you’d be interested. You asked me to let you know when I was doing this so here’s your timely notification to go to
http://dschondog.wordpress.com/2012/02/19/the-hard-eucharisteo-and-the-dark-night/

You may be in what St John of the Cross calls contemplation, Craig. In that place you feel nothing because God is trying to communicate with you in another way and He can only accomplish this if He purges your senses. No senses = no feeling.
Dawn

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Craig February 24, 2012 at 12:13 pm

Hmmmmmmmmm. I AM feeling a little numb…… Hmmmmmmm…. don’t have the time to read the book – but I can’t resist making the time to go read you – by the time you read THIS, I’ll already have been there, and you’ll be reading my comment (ˆ◡ˆ)

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Katie February 23, 2012 at 10:43 pm

Thank you Craig. Never alone.

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Craig February 24, 2012 at 12:11 pm

Never (ˆ◡ˆ) no matter how we feel…

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Nacole@sixinthesticks February 24, 2012 at 7:32 pm

beautiful, Craig–pictures and all. i like this best: “I ask for the Holy Spirit of God to bring me peace.
Symbolically I breathe it in and exhale stress…
and I trust that it’ll work.”

yes! exactly…trust it will work.

don’t think i shared my story of fasting with you yet, but here it is:
http://sixinthehickorysticks.blogspot.com/2012/02/maybe-epic-fast-fail-is-really-doing.html

blessings, friend!

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Craig February 25, 2012 at 6:34 am

Nacole, I’m really glad I’ll have this experience recorded, that because of Ann, I took the time to research it first, and then actually do it, and the recording of it will mean I’ll have all lessons that I learned written down. There was so much in just a two day fast. Coming off of pneumonia a fast wasn’t probably the best idea – but now that it’s done – I get to reap the benefits of the wisdom I gained – and because of this blog – get to share it – and have it saved. Trust DID work by the way – and maybe I should remember that in the future. Blessings to you to my friend!

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Layla Payton February 24, 2012 at 10:26 pm

Funny you should be talking about fasting (or, I suppose Lent might have something to do with it…lol). I just finished, “7” by Jenn Hatmaker.

Whoa.

PutTheBrakesOn

That book is AMAZING.

I wanted to stop by & let you know I’ve updated my homeschool blog. I also wanted to take a peek at what you are up to. :) I’ve taken another health hit, so reading has been my drug of choice. Perhaps I shall catch up on some blog posts…? We’ll see how much I can read before I konk out. Zzz… -_-

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Craig February 25, 2012 at 6:39 am

and remember that offer while ago, to join you in your “diet”, trust me, as I fasted, I thought of it also as joining in with you – and that made me smile. I don’t know how a busy mom like you could ever do a fast, it depletes you of so much energy, but you have yours foisted upon you, and somehow you remain Layla 0 red cape and all. Inspiration really. God bless you!

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Mari February 27, 2012 at 8:01 pm

hmmm, I’ve been thinking about fasting lately and I think reading this has pushed me to incorporating it weekly until Easter, thanks for that! glad to read you again after a short internet break 😉

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Craig March 3, 2012 at 5:10 am

Mari, don’t think for one second that you weren’t missed – you WERE – it’s not the same without you here – I smile just seeing your name – before even reading your comment. God bless you Mari!!! (ˆ◡ˆ)

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