Love gives up…to gain

by Craig on February 29, 2012

A journal of epiphanies...giving up to gain...a Lenten fast...source

And so I fasted…
never had before…
now I can never not do it again.

It was brimming with epiphany…
and I want to share the experience with you…
and ponder it in my heart…
lock and key…
in. my. heart.

This is part 4, part 3 is here, 2 here, and it began here.

A few hours into the fast and suddenly a tiny act of love seems…necessary.

I text my sister about helping her this week with her baby – as the twins in her womb are edging closer to making their grand appearance.

And that’s love I think…
not always the grand gesture…

A journal of epiphanies...giving up to gain...a Lenten fast...source

but spattered like paint flicked from a paintbrush onto a canvas…

love…little…continual…adding up to much.

Like this little 2 day fast…
“eating” meditation…
and spirit…
and maybe tea and a light meal…

little…continual…adding up to much.

The Catholic rules for fast allow for basically one mid-day meal. But there’s some grace to it…some wiggle room…the target being “…in the spirit, not the letter…” of the law. (Rom 2:29)

I heart that!

Five hours into the fast and I’m hungry…and I wonder…
maybe the hunger is to turn our attention…

A journal of epiphanies...giving up to gain...a Lenten fast...

James Tissot's "Jesus Tempted in the Wilderness" (hanging in the Brooklyn Museum)

turn our focus to our hunger…or lack of hunger…for Our Lord.

And I read a story about giving up things for Lent.
A child gives up fighting with his brothers.
The father asks how it’s coming along.

“I’m doing pretty good, Dad—but boy, I can’t wait until Easter!”

Kinda missed the point of Lent…
but because of his miss, I get it.

Lent is about conversion…
turning our life into His…
giving up to gain…

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and decay destroy, and thieves break in and steal. But store up treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor decay destroys, nor thieves break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there also will your heart be. (MT 6:19-21)

So this fast…
part of Lent…
giving up…gaining…
seeking the heart of God…
and I wonder how to seek best…
and I suddenly know.

Constant prayer, yes…
and Scripture of course…
and something different for me…

source

The Stations of the Cross.

I’m not Catholic, I’ve never really thought much of them…
but I sensed spiritual epiphanies were there…

and they were!

Tomorrow, God willing…
some of the magic that happened…
as I turned my heart in this direction…

God magic…

the best kind.

Please. Come Back.

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Lisa notes February 29, 2012 at 3:07 pm

Offering to help your sister – no small thing, Craig. It’s a biggie to her, I’m sure. You’re a good man. A good brother. Thank you for showing us the way.

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Craig February 29, 2012 at 3:24 pm

just a small gesture – just a little love – it all adds up. No? And now, before I forget, and Lord knows I forget, Lord knows there’s not enough time to read all the blogs I heart, I’m headed over to yours. I kind of can’t wait! God bless you Lisa. God bless you.

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bernadette March 1, 2012 at 2:13 am

checking out your twin sites for the first time.
enjoying.
grateful.
men who are “all in”
for this Jesus.
just…
thanks.

bernadette

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Craig March 2, 2012 at 6:21 pm

sorry Bernadette, but you got caught in my spam catcher – and I didn’t save you till today – thank you for your kind words – I’ve already been over to read you – I heart your poetry! God bless and keep you!

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bernadette March 1, 2012 at 2:15 am

try again.
to say that i’ve been here.
to both sites.
and that i’m grateful.
to men who are “all in.”
for this Jesus.
sigh.
it is good.
thank you.

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Leisa A. Hammett March 1, 2012 at 3:10 pm

I like your style of writing, Craig. Thanks for commenting on my blog post today.

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Craig March 3, 2012 at 4:52 am

Tank you Leisa – sometimes I worry it might be choppy and hard to read – but it is definitely developing a style – I heart it – it’s me. God bless!!

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LuAnne March 3, 2012 at 6:30 am

Beautiful words, Craig…

“giving up…gaining”.

Fasting from food, feeding on the Word – what else could fill up the soul so completely?

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Craig March 16, 2012 at 7:34 am

LuAnne, for a while my blog wasn’t notifying me of comments – so some of the ones from past posts I haven’t seen – this is the first I’ve seen of your comment on this post. So sorry I’m late in responding. Anyway, thank you. “Giving up… Gaining” that seemed to be a big thing about fasting – and feasting on spiritual stuff at the same time. I know that YOU already know this. God bless you LuAnne.

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Nacole@sixinthesticks March 15, 2012 at 9:40 pm

hey Craig,

my favorite part: “turn our focus to our hunger…or lack of hunger…for Our Lord.” yes, that’s exactly it. just in my little fast–as small as it was-this was something God spoke to me. i don’t hunger near enough. He has awakened me to it, though–really stirred life within–told me i am His own–His beloved–He is wooing me–the God of all creation. He loves, He LOVES me! He tells me when i wake in the morning to the sunrise softly glinting through curtains, “This is for you! It’s all for you!” His pursuit of me makes me hunger more for Him. i am trying to catch up on your writing of the 48 hr fast. im intrigued.

blessings and *prayers*, friend.

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Craig March 16, 2012 at 7:38 am

I really heart those times when we get revved up spiritually – and your words are revved up – and they make me smile. I just finished a prayer for you too my friend – that our Lord would draw you in – make you hungry – keep you revved up – keep your health up – and your spirit – And your heart. God bless you Nacole.

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