Love is driven to the ground

by Craig on March 9, 2012

source (the following are from the same artwork)

The Third Station of the Cross…
You fall under the weight of the beam.

And it’s not just those on the Via Dolorosa who see.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us rid ourselves of every burden and sin that clings to us and persevere in running the race that lies before us. (Heb 12:1)

But you couldn’t…wouldn’t…
rid yourself of our burdens.
You carried them and still do…

…when we let them go.

Recounting the journey of my 48 hour lenten fast…

The journaling of the fast began here – and if you’d like, you can follow the posts one after the other…to this one.

And our sin clung tight to you like paint drying on wood…
coat after heavy coat of scarlet hued paint.

Crushed to the ground by the weight of our sin…my sin…
You could not run the race set before you…
You plod and trudge…
trip, stumble…
collapse.

And angles look on…

Disquieted. Prayerful.

Dismayed. Unsettled.

Somber. Mournful.

Distressed. Anguished.

Eyes to heaven…or down at the ground.

Tenderhearted. Heavy-hearted. Brokenhearted.

A host of angels…
a cloud…

of witnesses…

maybe the same ones that were so joyfully present at your birth…now beyond words deep in sorrow.

Some of Your disciples line the streets…
shamed because they can’t show their emotion…
afraid that the crowd would trample them underfoot….
treat them as You were being treated.

I am…we are…so fearful of being ridiculed and despised.

The weight of sin pushes God down…
face to dirt…
fingers clawing at the ground.

Days without sleep…
no food…maybe no water…
having lost and losing too. much. blood…
splinters of wood tearing open previously closed wounds…
that crown…of thorns.

The human body can only go so far, and yours was meeting its limits.

But I see You…
You know You have a duty…
You push yourself up…
roll the beam to your shoulders.

You have to keep going.

Sometimes we just. have to. keep. going.

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Tears roll down my face as I type.
So sad…this is so sad.

My God is real…
You walked the streets to Calvary…
willing spirit…weak flesh…like me…like us…
But without one drop of sin. (Heb 4:15)

We don’t believe in a far-off, impersonal, theoretical, made up God.

It’s the end of the Third Station of the Cross…

12 hours into my Lenten fast…

time for the Fourth Station of the Cross…

You come face to face…

with…

Your mom…

{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Eric March 11, 2012 at 9:28 am

Good. So good. Angels – I never thought of them that day.

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Layla Payton March 11, 2012 at 6:42 pm

Wow. Yeah, me too. Why have I never thought about how the angels must have felt? It would be interesting to do a study on every peron, or being’s, struggles as they witnessed Jesus paying the ultimate price. How the enemies jeered and raged. And, of course, to do a study on all of the possible emotions/feelings/struggles that Jesus went through. I wonder how much more real this scene would feel if we pondered all of the emotions…?

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Craig March 13, 2012 at 9:40 am

I have a book, found it about 20 years ago at the bottom of a showcase in a new age bookstore – I’ll be writing about it soon – it’s almost like an adult picture book – the art is magnificent, showcasing the life of our Lord – but always focusing on those around him – NOT him. So yes – your idea is a beautiful one. By the way, while I have you, the “test” comments were because for a while I was getting e-mail notification when someone left a comment – so the web host company and I were testing things out. Now you know… Curious cat 【◠‿◠】 hope you’re feeling good – and I know that “good” is a relative term.

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Lisa Maria March 13, 2012 at 5:29 pm

Your words Craig… they rend the heart! I know how you feel…it never fails to bring me to my knees when I contemplate all that He suffered for MY sins, for OUR sins. Meditating on His Passion is something that I think really puts things into perspective, no? How could we ever merit such sacrifice? And yet He continues to pour out His blood each and every time one of us falls into temptation or outright sin. What an awesome God…could we fail to love Him? Yet so many do…its really heartbreaking. Looking forward to the rest of it. Blessings to you!

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