This is the vehicle of Your death, Lord.
The hammer is raised.
Your heart races…
soon it won’t be able to.
But now it quickens as You anticipate…
pounding of hammer. to. nail.
It might seem to take forever for the hammer to drop, but it is driven through.
Can You stop Yourself from crying out?
Your hand wants to clench but it can’t.
You want to pull it away…
but You can’t…
and that’s just the first nail.
Then the other hand…
twice the pain…
because the first wave has yet to subside.
The second nail…is driven in.
It’s likely the wrist between the bones, not the palm. But it honestly doesn’t matter.
You must think what we all think…
when things are unbearably hard…
when things seem they can’t get worse…
but we really suspect they will.
Because You are human…God.
Maybe the most sensitive area of the human body is the area where they nail Your feet.
It’s a larger nail…
a more massive hammer…
a longer arc to the swing.
The nails hold You fast.
You become one with the cross.
The One without sin becomes one with our sin.
You hear orders shouted…
You have grown up hearing this language of Rome…Latin.
Maybe it gives You a chance to brace for what’s next.
“Raise the Cross”
Rope grasped by blood stained hands lift the crucifix high.
It wrests all of Your breath from Your longs.
You are suspended in air, the cross twisting as Roman hands maneuver it into position.
They have a job do…
with a carcass of meat on a hook.
They don’t think much about the carcass.
“Lower the cross”
Tired Roman arms are all too eager to let go of the ropes. The cross smashes unrestrained into a hole dug into the earth. When the bottom of the cross hits the bottom of the hole…
I can’t think of the agony heaped upon agony.
And do You then remember Your own words?
Those two Bible verses that we all forget come just before the really famous one…
And just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the desert, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, so that everyone who believes in him may have eternal life. John 3:14, 15
And we have these seven phrases You uttered from the Cross…
Father forgive them, for they know not what they do. (Luke 23:34)
Truly, I say to You, today You will be with me in paradise. (Luke 23:43)
Woman, behold Your son: behold Your mother. (John 19:26-27)
My God, My God, why have You forsaken me. (Matthew 27:46 and Mark 15:34)
I thirst. (John 19:28)
It is finished. (John 19:30)
Father, into Your hands I commit my spirit. (Luke 23:46)
But that one in the middle really gets me.
You quote Scripture from the Cross.
I need to consider that….
Anyway…I’m recounting the journey of my 48 hour Lenten fast…meditating on the Stations of the Cross. The journaling of the fast began here – and if you’d like, you can follow the posts one after the other…to this one. They’re all short – a breeze to read – a little longer if you like gazing at pretty pictures ツ
God bless, thank you , and please come back.