Love accepts help, and helps, and says thank you to God.

by Craig on August 13, 2012


Being held by one and drawn to the other...or is it the other way around?


I find myself suspended in between…

in a dire position where I need help…


in a perfect place to help someone else , also in a dire position.

I’m not sure which is hurting more.

But I am sure that helping someone who kicks and screams and struggles against help…
it doesn’t mean the help stops. Love helps despite the sharp edges and wounds caused by helping.

Jesus had 23 apostles…
all of whom never quite got it…
until after he was gone.

They misunderstood, they doubted, they jostled for position.
The one who probably appeared easiest to help was Judas.
Still, for three years he never gave up on those 12 he called “little faith ones”.

Love is not self-centered. Love is not thinking of yourself as you try to help another.

I am in desperate need of help, yet I fight against it…
and I’m also positioned perfectly to help someone…
someone else who fights…determined to destroy herself.
It’s strange that I should be in both places simultaneously.

But here I am…
being that that prickly porcupine…
while trying to hold another porcupine.


There is so much about love to be learned from both sides of this equation.

I am learning…

And today…
along with the learning…
a few thank you’s to God…

Thank you God…

#968… that on this journey “down the rabbit hole” I have had people here, in this space, to be with me, and one imperfectly perfect baby sister, and one amazing Love Kittie.

#969… that You, Lord, are eternal – and Your sacrifice has been – and will be – eternal.
We are “everlasting” – not “eternal”…we all had a beginning – You did not.

#970… that if we love You, believe in You, and love others for and through You, we live forever.

#971… that no sacrifice could have saved humanity except an infinite and eternal one. Only You are infinite and eternal. So we can be saved.

#972… that I am not whole, I am shattered and incomplete.
I cannot be whole unless You fill in my missing pieces…
and You do…so even though broken and leaking…
I. Am. Whole.

#973… that believing is a good thing…
but having a Perfect object of faith…
and a faith that lives, that is better
I believe in You. I love for YOU.

#974… for leaning and listening and hearing Your voice.
The only way out of this “rabbit hole” is You.
I’m leaning heavy…listening closely…climbing with intention.

{ 19 comments… read them below or add one }

Christina August 13, 2012 at 11:51 am

Only Him…only Him. It’s His voice who guides us in the blindness when we can’t see anything in front of us. Your list is powerful, as always. And points me to Him as the solution for all things. Blessings to you today!


Craig August 17, 2012 at 2:30 pm

Christina, my life is still surrounded in rubble, there was the storm of more than three months ago, and then the 7 days of no sleep, and the psychological impact of the seven days that I’m still not quite back from – so I’m sorry for replying so late. Things are still struggle. But in the struggle he is the light that guides me home – and as you put it – he is the solution for all things. Thank you Christina, thank you and God bless you.


Kelly August 13, 2012 at 12:19 pm

i love that we are broken… that means He can ooze out through our cracks! If we were perfect and beautiful people would admire us… as cracked and broken His light shines through! Blessings from Uganda


Craig August 17, 2012 at 2:31 pm

so many cracks – I’ve got so many cracks for him to ooze through – and his light is always the light that leads me. Blessings to you and yours IN Uganda, Kelly!


thefisherlady August 13, 2012 at 12:26 pm

Amen… Jesus will indeed lead us out of the rabbit hole… Jesus, our hope of glory
blessings to you Craig


Craig August 17, 2012 at 2:33 pm

Susan, every personal rabbit hole – every spiritual rabbit hole – every eternal rabbit hole – amen my sister in our Lord, he is our hope – he is our glory – and blessings to you too my friend.


Stacy August 13, 2012 at 1:45 pm

What a beautiful post, Craig. It is no coincidence that God would bring someone, in their pain, to you in your pain. Share your experience, share your God. Your God who loves you and knows that in helping others there is healing. :)


Craig August 17, 2012 at 2:35 pm

I have learned that in helping others there IS healing – I’ve also learned that sometimes we help others so we can avoid fixing our own problems – I’m a little back-and-forth on which kind of helping this is for me – I would love to be able to admit honestly that it’s definitely helping out of love – but the jury is still out – regardless I will continue to help – although right now – I’m a little bereft of help myself – so that position of being in between – doesn’t seem to really apply right now. Regardless – to help is to love – I need to love. God bless you Stacy, and thank you.


Cynthia Swenson August 13, 2012 at 6:35 pm

It’s good to see you back here @ Ann’s Craig. Love & prayers, in Jesus, Cynthia


Craig August 18, 2012 at 5:39 am

Cynthia – the absence is difficult to explain – I’m still not all the way back. Kind of fighting moment by moment. Thank you for you prayers – much needed. God bless!!


Lisa Maria August 14, 2012 at 6:58 am

Beautiful Craig…and yes, the only way out of the rabbit hole is through Him. Sometimes it is hard not to turn inward, but maybe that’s why He leads us to others who need help as well. If we could stop thinking about our own situations long enough, we hand them over to Him and surrender. I pray that this other porcupine will open up and share and you can both find peace and healing in Him.

Thank you so much for the kind comments you left at my place. It means so much to have friends who pray and care. Feeling the love across the seas…and thank you!

God be with you and yours!


Craig August 18, 2012 at 5:43 am

so far the porcupine is mostly quills with occasional periods of non-porcupine behavior. But it doesn’t matter – it’s mine to control what I can control, and that’s acts of love – it’s God’s to control the rest. I think it’s kind of the same way with sharing the gospel – it’s ours to say the words – it’s God’s to do the saving. Blessings to you Lisa Maria as you go through what you are going through. God bless and keep you – from across the sea 【ˆ◡ˆ】


Caddo Veil August 15, 2012 at 5:12 pm

Craig, I am always “in Wow” when I come here, seriously. And it’s so easy and tempting to say, “I’d sure like to be more like brother Craig”–but I don’t want the sleep issues, of course. I guess what I’m so awkwardly trying to say, is that–again, today–you confirm that I, too, have value/worth/purpose in God’s kingdom plan EVEN THOUGH I have disabilities (and character flaws a-plenty). I don’t think we can ever wrap our heads around how much God loves us–even though, or despite all that other stuff. He loves us Fiercely–more fiercely than the porcupines we morph into so often. Amen? Amen! God bless you BIG today, brother–love, sis Caddo


Craig August 18, 2012 at 5:48 am

oh, Caddo, you don’t want to be like me, and my “size too small” faith – and my grumbly half glass empty posture – you don’t want to be like me – don’t let the pretty words fool you –I’m a totally broken vessel. God uses broken vessels, and sometimes broken vessels are the best ones to be used. Happy, “trying not to be a porcupine” day Caddo. And God bless and keep you!!!


patientanonymous August 18, 2012 at 1:09 pm

I see you liked my wee porcupine up there.

Loving and helping someone when you are in need is a good thing. At least I think so. However, I have gone way too far there, much to my detriment. I ignore my own needs for help and care. Nonetheless, I don’t stop. Everyone needs it.

I also agree that helping others is good for you. It can give you a lift. It can hopefully get you out of your hole a bit, and say, “I did something good today. I helped someone and they needed it. I feel like I am not so useless etc.”

Take care,


Craig August 18, 2012 at 1:17 pm

Your porcupine picture was awesome – and I just couldn’t resist. Thank you for dropping by! I think the picture really helped make the post! And I think the thing is to just help because to help is to love – even when it hurts – even when we don’t feel like it – even if we get nothing in return – I’m not big on the whole karma thing – some things don’t get rewarded in the here and now – a LOT of things don’t get rewarded in the here and now – but so long as the helping is from motives of love – the helping is good – thank you for YOUR help btw – God bless and keep you PA. (didn’t mean that to rhyme) ツ


patientanonymous August 18, 2012 at 1:47 pm

Hi, thanks for your reply and the rhyme is fine. I’m a writer so all is good!

It’s funny that you mention the whole Karma thing. I didn’t know whether to bring it up or not, but I try to rely upon Buddhism as best I can. In fact, you don’t even have to go whole hog into a lot of the Western teachings in order for it to be compatible with any religion or faith you practise. It’s very simple in a lot of ways.

That is because, and why, I say it is a non-theistic philosophy. Buddha was/is not a god as so many people think. They may choose to due to his story, but he was a normal man who gave up all his riches and felt philosophically there was more to learn, basically. And he did learn. And passed it on.

Yet, it is funny to know that monks of different practices have lots of fights so it’s not all peace and floaty hooey. I did find that rather crazy and amusing when I learned of it.

But a lot of basic tenets are so simple for anyone to do in the whole wide world. It’s how to live in the here and now (which I know can be very hard!) Still, when you are living your life, it is all about acting in ways that are peaceful and hot harmful.

Okay, that was a very quick overview!


Craig August 18, 2012 at 2:25 pm

My first Buddhist comment ever on my humble little Christian blog. I think we’ll keep it right here – it IS a pretty nice philosophy. ツ Thanks PA


patientanonymous August 18, 2012 at 2:39 pm

You’re welcome, sweetie.


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