Love remembers when eternity touches time | Sara

by Craig on September 19, 2012

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This time last year…
life touched death…
and death became life.

and I don’t want to forget…
so it’s time to for me…
to remember what I wrote…

about Sara

A “better than the angels” is about to soar where angels dare to tread.

I remember the first post of Sara’s I ever read.

I never left her enough comments to say how astonishing her faith and her words were. It’s kind of the only way someone who blogs knows that their words are treasured, you know? A writer wants nothing more than that their words be treasured.

I treasure her words.

The post that I read was how she had arranged a wall…
filled it with hopeful things: art, words…
even in a hopeless situation.

I’m sure she flinched…
entertained doubts…
she is human…
But you don’t fake a faith like hers.

And she may be in her final days now…maybe her final hours.

I never met Sara…
just her words…
just her faith…

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Just like I’ve never met almost all of you…
just your words…
just your faith.

And my heart…

is…

shattered.

If all we have is this life…
if all we have are our accomplishments…
or religion…
or money…
or even our families and friends…
it isn’t enough.

Because as her life ends I’m reminded of how much there had better be more…
and how glad I am that I know, I know, I know, that there is more.
I’m reminded of how much evidence we have in our lives that God is…
that there is so much reason to believe that this is not all there is…
that saying words like eternity, infinity, and everlasting have to mean something…

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…and they do mean something.

How can I cry this much over someone I’ve never met?!

But soon, very soon, even though she dies I believe she will live … still.
Not in some symbolic way, where if we keep her memory alive, then she’s alive…

but she will really always be…alive.

She knew this was coming…
and she chose joy…
I can only aspire to the same faith…
the same heart…
the same courage…

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…the same joy

I’m sorry…

I’m really sorry, Sara…
that your earthly life has been cut so short…
it isn’t fair…

it isn’t fair…

it isn’t fair.

I despise how unfair this life is…
I detest how this world is broken…
I hate that your body broke…
I heart…
I heart…
big fluffy heart…
how your spirit never did.

Sara’s one little word for 2011 was…

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“praise”

Mine was “connect”.
And she did…
and I have…
and…

my. heart. is. in. pieces.

A “better than the angels” is about to soar where angels dare to tread.

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Lisa notes September 19, 2012 at 9:35 am

“My heart is in pieces.” The fallout of connecting. :-( But the upside is being able to praise with others. You and Sara were connected…

You have such a tender heart, Craig. I’m blessed to call you friend.

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Craig September 19, 2012 at 11:20 am

thank you Lisa. This time, writing about Sara, and witnessing from afar her last days – and her first days in eternity – it was the most profound experience of my blogging life. And I don’t want to forget – so I’m going to keep remembering, right here, for while – and in life, I’m hoping that her imprint never fades. Thank you again Lisa, I’m blessed to call you friend as well, God bless!

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Nancy Franson September 19, 2012 at 5:53 pm

Oh, Craig! I haven’t been over here in forever, but I’m so glad I stopped by today to read your lovely tribute. Yes, we will all connect one day, we will all finally meet and give praise together. And all will be well.

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:28 pm

I’m glad you came by Nancy, thank you. And this “tribute” – it’s not a one-time thing – I think I’ll be dwelling on this for a while because although Sara isn’t here anymore her message is – she is with our Lord and still living in absolute bliss – but I don’t want time to cover up her message or her memory. Thank you Nancy, God bless, and choose joy!

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Brandee Shafer September 19, 2012 at 8:22 pm

I’m so thankful that Jesus secures our souls. It’s our guarantee, and it’s only through Him. You have such a good heart, Craig.

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:30 pm

Brandee, I have a heart that has its moments – it’s a heart that’s still learning how to grow. And I am thankful that our clock never runs out – that eternity has already begun and we will never die. I’m totally with you on that. God bless you Brandee, and thank you, choose joy!

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Elizabeth September 19, 2012 at 10:11 pm

I too, am so very, very thankful that this life is not all there is, that in Christ eternity, everlasting, really mean something!

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:32 pm

Elizabeth, Amen – without God those terms mean nothing – without God life means nothing – we just live – and then we die – and then the universe will eventually die to – so nothing means anything without him. If we could only remember that as we walk through the day – realize how special we are in his eyes – how special human life is over all other life. Silly humans! Silly me! God bless you Elizabeth – thank you – choose joy!

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A. September 19, 2012 at 10:30 pm

And Craig, I am so glad you introduced me to Sara. I was so blessed by her comments online, her posts. What an amazing person! And so humble! Thank you for connecting others during your year of connection!

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:34 pm

and last year was “connect” and I experienced both sides of the sword. This year is the year of “see” and I’m experiencing both sides of THAT sword. Makes me tremble a little bit for the naming of next year. Anyway, thank you as always A, God bless – choose joy!

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Tracie September 20, 2012 at 12:06 am

There are so many times when I miss Sara. Even a year later. Even though we never met in person. Her words, her life, touched my heart so much. I think of her often.

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:36 pm

Tracie, you know how time is – it really DOES heal – the further we get from a time such as this, the more the memory fades – I just don’t want the memory to fade – I always want to remember her message and her life and her new life. Thank you Tracy. God bless. Choose joy!

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Kati Woronka September 20, 2012 at 3:29 am

I remember when you wrote about this last year… I am so inspired to see how lives inspire in our online world. Thank you for (re-)sharing.

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:38 pm

Kati, I really thought it was necessary for me to remember this time from last year. Whenever eternity touches time like this it’s an important time to remember, and take stock, and learn, and grow, and be thankful. All of these things I’m being right now. Thank you. God bless you Kati, and choose joy!

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Nacole September 20, 2012 at 10:21 am

Dear Craig,

Brother, this is beautiful!! What an emotional little piece–it has a poetic flow. Your heart comes through in your words and I am right there with you, grieving for Sara as I read your words. Sara was an amazing soul. I know a lot around here really miss her. Blessings, friend.

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:40 pm

thank you Nacole, you know how much I love your writing so when you tell me something is pretty to read – I take notice. Thank you. Remembering a miracle – remembering a special person, with a special message, and a special life, and the special death – all important. I’m glad I have this chance to remember – and continue to learn from her. Choose joy. God bless.

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happygirl September 20, 2012 at 10:37 am

What a wonderful tribute to Sara. The images you used blended so strongly with your words. I am so happy my hope is in Jesus and I truly believe this world is not my home. It’s good to read your words again. :)

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Craig September 20, 2012 at 1:42 pm

thank you – it was nice having you here. And amen – Jesus is our hope – this is NOT our home. God bless! Choose joy!

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Mari September 20, 2012 at 9:33 pm

Wow, a year! Her decision to “Choose Joy” daily has been an inspiration for me. Isint it great though, that one day you will get to meet her, and share forever with her and all the others who came before us but have inspired us in our faith walk? That thought causes me to smile…

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Craig September 21, 2012 at 5:00 pm

Mari, this whole family of ours that we will get to meet – Peter, Mary, Abraham, Sara, and friends we have lost for a time – and family – eternity is a long time, and we’ll get to spend it with them, in love, with God – yeah – it IS kind of amazing to think of. Thank you Mari. Choose joy!

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imperfect prose September 21, 2012 at 3:17 pm

oh craig. thank you for reminding me of sarah’s beautiful life, and you’re right: you can’t fake a faith like hers. i am tearing up, remembering, and now she is with our Lord. fully well and fully alive and fully waiting for us to join her. bless you friend.

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Craig September 21, 2012 at 5:03 pm

Emily, one of the nicest things I can think is how all the bodies that didn’t work well here – or the bodies that grew old and died here – all of those are now living with the resurrected bodies – magical things which we know little of – but we know are full of awesome. Her bravery, her faith, her love – all are shining examples to me – and last year – THIS time last year – it was one of the more significant times in my blogging life. Thank you for allowing me to share. God bless you and all of your men – little and big. Choose joy!

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