Love helps the reflections |pt 7| success, failure, determination

by Craig on December 17, 2012

The eaglet is soaring from horizon to horizon…

a whimsical kite glides….
a mile above the earth…
discovering updraft after updraft .

The badger is content…
and intent upon smiling.


one thing I have learned from helping the five reflections is that what’s outside very often doesn’t reflect what’s inside. In public, unless you know me very well, I always project much more shine then when I’m alone.

I knew I did that.
I didn’t think too many others did.
But every single reflection of mine does.

Do you?

The good news is that the sea otter, the chameleon, and even the porcupine have been sources of joy in a truly dark time. The bad news is that with the sleep thing there’s not much time or energy left over for my life.

The truth be told, it’s likely been unwise to invest so much of me in helping them.

But is an investment in 1 Corinthians 13 love ever a wrong investment?

All of their lives…
once dire, daunting, and discouraging…
are pointed in a much better direction now.

You’d think that with one of the five, things would’ve gone haywire.

Porcupines are a prickly pickle to handle.
Sea otters, as playful as they seem, can be restive.
Chameleons are very difficult to trust…and are oh so distrusting.

There have been monumental tussles with the sea otter.
There have been deep wounds received by porcupine quills.

And the chameleon?

She worries me a little…more on her soon.

And me?

Since those 7 days with no sleep, and spending too many resources and too much time down the rabbit hole – my brain and spirit are still not where they should be. The professional help has proven to be not very helpful. I’m striving with everything in me to transform this time down the rabbit hole from garbage to gold.

But during this time…

as much as I’ve helped the five reflections…

I remain a huge heap of destruction…myself.

But love doesn’t give in, doesn’t give up, and just keeps on trying.


{ 3 comments… read them below or add one }

Mari December 17, 2012 at 3:46 pm

Hi Craig, it has been a while since I have visited but I am glad to be here now. I have never been good at showing others that “all is well” with me and I am actually a little jealous of ppl who can. It feels like I am naked for all to see when “something” is up with me, with my life. And no, I don’t think love is ever a bad investment. Blessings to you…


A. December 20, 2012 at 11:18 am

Craig, i just typed a response that disappeared. Arrrrgh! Anyway, I would call your ‘heap’ ‘construction’, because it is likely that Father is making a beautiful thing in you….not that you are devoid of His creation in your life already, but that He is adding to it. It is just sooooo hard when it has to be so dark and painful and uncertain feeling and confusing at times in the process. At least, for me it is and was. You and I experience unique darknesses, not identical, but dark is still dark and it can be massively painful and disorienting.

Still praying, every day, for His blessings and comfort and clarity and provision for you, dear brother.


nancy December 20, 2012 at 12:33 pm

Yes, love does not give in, does not give up, just keeps on trying. i found some encouragement from the following – maybe it will help you too…
I will give thee the treasures of darkness. (Isa. 45:3)
In the famous lace shops of Brussels, there are certain rooms devoted to the spinning of the finest and most delicate patterns. These rooms are altogether darkened, save for a light from one very small window, which falls directly upon the pattern. There is only one spinner in the room, and he sits where the narrow stream of light falls upon the threads of his weaving. “Thus,” we are told by the guide, “do we secure our choicest products. Lace is always more delicately and beautifully woven when the worker himself is in the dark and only his pattern is in the light.”
May it not be the same with us in our weaving? Sometimes it is very dark. We cannot understand what we are doing. We do not see the web we are weaving. We are not able to discover any beauty, any possible good in our experience. Yet if we are faithful and fail not and faint not, we shall some day know that the most exquisite work of all our life was done in those days when it was so dark.
If you are in the deep shadows because of some strange, mysterious providence, do not be afraid. Simply go on in faith and love, never doubting. God is watching, and he will bring good and beauty out of all your pain and tears. (J. R. Miller)
The shuttles of His purpose move
To carry out His own design;
Seek not too soon to disapprove
His work, nor yet assign
Dark motives, when, with silent tread,
You view some somber fold;
For lo, within each darker thread
There twines a thread of gold.
Spin, cheerfully,
Not tearfully,
He knows the way you plod;
Spin carefully,
Spin prayerfully,
But love the thread with God. (From the Canadian Home Journal)
Both selections from Streams in the Desert


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