Love considers the mountain lion, the badger, the tiff | part 3

by Craig on March 5, 2014

Smallish breadcrumbs scattered on the ground…
neither big ones, nor “all at once” ones…
but if you keep puttin’ em down…
breadcrumbs still add up…

When help is offered it can be a trail of breadcrumbs...

Yeah, unless some hungry birds get there first.  ッ

Anyway…

that’s the way I’ve tried to help…
but admittedly, sometimes mountain lions lay crumbs down carelessly…
and regardless, sometimes badgers have little to no use for breadcrumbs.

They trample on them, or disregard them, reject or despise them.

This story of help, and argument, and giving and receiving began here. 

 

This particular breadcrumb placed me at the receiving end of badger claws and fangs.

It hurt.

So I’m asking why.

Honestly, I’ve helped her…

way more than anyone could have expected…
maybe way more than anyone ever has…
and maybe way more than I ever should have.

But, also honestly, I’m too easily offended. She and I call them my “sensitive baby feelings”…those things that get so quickly injured. Sensitivity can be a delicious blessing, but “sensitive baby feelings” can be a slippery form of pride.

And also honestly…
I like my help to be appreciated.
Love doesn’t care if help is noticed.

I heard this once…true stuff…

there is a right way and a wrong way to fight

 

So maybe…
like a kitten that you tumble over as it dashes across the floor…
because it pays no attention to where the human feet are moving…

the blame is skittering around, aimlessly bumping into feelings…

maybe rightfully placed underneath my sensitive feet…as well as hers.

There is more…
please come back.

{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Mizliz Liz March 5, 2014 at 10:28 pm

Keep writing, dear friend. Perhaps your words help you…ALL your words grow me.
And, ???
does giving. or receiving. ever have a beginning.
Holding you in prayers and Love.

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Martha Orlando March 6, 2014 at 7:46 am

I can most certainly identify with being overly sensitive . . . it is both blessing and curse, is it not?
I will be back, dear friend . . .
Love and blessings!

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Katie March 10, 2014 at 11:14 pm

yeah… overly sensitive here also. I have also been there when I was helping someone and had to do the hard right thing and call the police because the person was a danger to herself. I thought I lost a friend over it. But God is growing her and healing her and our relationship is being restored.

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A. March 13, 2014 at 10:02 am

Sensitive-too much, too little? How to find the balance. So tricky sometimes. Makes me just want to curl up and cry. Can’t do that though. There is no growth in that. Your words, a long time ago…”don’t waste the pain.” Thank you for those words, again, as they come back to my mind now. You have so many wise words. Thank you for sharing them, Craig. I hope and pray that Father (of Lights) is sending some your way, too.

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